Your Standard Update

Mar 6, 2009 by Rochelle

I haven’t really updated the old blog in awhile, and definitely not with anything really relevant. So what’s been going on in my little life…

First of all. I’m 30! Yep, I finally hit that milestone and I did it in Las Vegas. I had a great time with my dad and sister there, and an overall great day. Being 30 is different, but it’s good. A part of me actually feels older and more mature. I’ve also been more at peace about certain things. I was going a little crazy in my mind and trying to hold onto my youth. This has gotten better, but I’m not altogether cured of my fear of being trapped.

Besides going to Las Vegas, I also went away to Suite Retreat for scrapbooking. It wasn’t the best one I’ve ever attended, but it wasn’t the worst. I don’t know why I always feel like an idiot at those events. I feel like I tell stupid stories and that I’m not being understood. It’s hard to describe, but for the past couple of years I’ve been happy when the weekend ended.

Sadly, I have not been writing lately. I want to so badly and I just need to do it. But it takes a bit to get there, if you know what I mean. For me to write that story I have to be in it. I’m constantly trying to stay connected to my story, but it gets hard as I get busy. I’ve had little time to devote to it at work besides just listening to “Ryan’s Playlist.” Ryan is the main character in my story and I’ve created a playlist of songs that he would play. Right now it has 53 songs in it. I listen to Ryan’s Playlist every single day. And even though the new U2 album came out (which confuses my brain, because it gets stuck on Bono so easily), I keep going back to Ryan’s Playlist in my car, or when I’m getting ready for work, or as I’m trying to fall asleep.

I so badly want to complete this story, more than I’ve wanted to complete anything in a long time. So I just need to do it and give up on some of the other fun creative activities I’ve been doing to occupy my nights. Hopefully this weekend will provide some good opportunities. Especially tomorrow. It’s supposed to be snowy…FINALLY…and I have nothing going on, which is such a thrill to me.

Anyway, all else is good. For lots of reasons my life seems to be so busy lately. I need to settle into that notion and adjust myself to it.